Have you ever known someone that just wasn’t right in the head? They get into a particular relationship and when things start going bad they automatically start to act different? It’s like they love so strong that their mind can’t keep up with their emotions. They start saying and doing some off the wall shit, and think that nothing is wrong with them but with everyone else. I always wondered if genetically people have the crazy demon in them already, or the minute they love too strong they start to lose it. Can love actually make someone crazy?
I have never ever ever in my life loved someone to the point I wanna kill myself and shit. I might have wanted to kill them for a brief moment in time, but came to my senses when I realized that I am too damn cute to be in some body’s jail. I just refuse to let someone who doesn’t deserve my ass have all that power. With that being said, there are times when you meet that one man/woman that makes you go all the way turned up. You can’t do anything else but think of this person. A homeboy of mine allowed this bitch to drive him crazy. I call her a bitch cause I didn’t like her grimy ass anyway. Truth be told I thought he could do better, but you can’t tell a person in love a damn thing that they don’t wanna hear. This man went above and beyond the call of duty for this chick. She called him and he would pick up on the first ring. The problem was, with all the things he did for her she never seemed to give anything in return. She treated this man like shit, but he couldn’t see it because he was so “in love”. One day he called her and the phone kept on ringing. He called and called until she started ignoring his calls. In between rings that shit went to voicemail. He started acting all female like and wanted to drive by her house to see if the car was there. Before he could do that she called him up all pissed and shit and asked him why he was blowing her up like that. Then this bitch had the nerve to tell ol boy “I’m on a date, leave me alone”. SMH… This dude went straight crazy on everybody. It came out she was using him *big f*cking surprise*. He just didn’t want to believe the woman he “loved” could do him so wrong.
You know this dude constantly called her..until she changed her number. He kept talking about “When they worked out the issues”. There wasn’t any issues to work out. Homeboy got played!!!! He was her “Right this minute man.” He did anything for her and she used it to her advantage. The minute she met a man that got more than he had she dropped him like  Beyonce did them Destiny Chil’ren. The sad part is, he couldn’t understand or get it through his head that he got played by a trick. This man wouldn’t date, wouldn’t enjoy life cause his mind was filled with thoughts of this chick. Do you really want to know the moment when iCouldn’t anymore? This son of a biscuit eating bulldog called me one night at 1am crying like a bitch cause he saw her out to the club with another dude. THIS GROWN ASS KNEEGROW ON THE PHONE BAWLING LIKE A BITCH CAUSE THE HOE DONE MOVED ON. One thing I dislike is someone crying about bullshit… THE SHIT I REFUSE TO TOLERATE IS A HEFTY ASS 200LB MAN CRYING LIKE SOMEONE JUST SHOT HIS DOG. Like really? I am so sorry and I hope you’re reading this, but I had to hang up on you. That shit ain’t sexy or cool that’s just f*cking crazy. I know love and emotions can hit you like a ton of bricks, but when your ass crying over someone that treated you like shit for that long, you need to get hung up on.
It took a while for him to get over her. He realized she was nothing but a gold digging trollop and he deserved better. It’s just sad he wasted a damn year chasing after her ass when he could have found the woman he was meant to be with. Sometimes you have to realize when to let go. You can’t force someone to love you the way you love them. It’s just not possible. I know love makes you do crazy things, but you need to learn the difference between love and obsession. Half the time the people you have this kind of love for ain’t worth shit. They treat you bad and leave you out there to dry. We tend to love those that only love themselves. They can’t see past their own shit to realize when someone loves them unconditionally. That is when we get ourselves in trouble. We love the challenge, the thrill of the chase. Essentially we want to be that person that can say “I changed him/her”. You can’t do that. If someone doesn’t love you, there is no way in hell you can make them think otherwise. Let it go…and move on. There is no need to kill your soul and spirit for someone that just doesn’t give a damn life you live or die.










GoodasGal
Comment made on April 13, 2010 @ 3:14 am
OMG as I started reading this I was like damn she's talking about me and she knows my ex. But as I continued reading and realized she was no good, then I knew it wasn't me. Yes people can "love" someone until they're driven insane. I was in a toxic relationship and even though I knew it wasn't good for me, I stayed and kept trying to work it out because I "love" him. Anyways when it was time to end the relationship he was crying & definitely threatened to kill himself and I had to get the knife away from him. CRAZY! Reading this story from your perspective, makes me think that's probably what his friends think ..that I drove him crazy lol. But if I didn't have a strong mind he would've driven me crazy. Unlike homegirl in this scenario that was no good…I was the opposite held him down when he had no place to live, & made sure he was always straight. But like you said the people that you love really aint worth the shit and he wasn't worth mine. Can't get that time back, but I learned a lot.