I suck gorilla balls when it comes to relationships. I think it’s a combination of my need to be the dominant one and their need to just be dumb as fuck. Wait let me take that back; *clearing throat* I don’t date dumb men; I just seem to meet emotionally challenged idiots that don’t know how to act when they meet a real woman such as myself. *Giggles* so I wonder does that make me an emotionally challenged magnet?
I can count on 1 hand how many times I’ve been in love. I don’t mean dicked me down so friggin awesome love. I mean loving someone to the point where you couldn’t see your life without them. Hell it didn’t help that the dick down had my ass stuck. In my relationships I tried until I just couldn’t try any longer. I gave love and they gave something else I couldn’t identify. I realized a long time ago that loving someone is knowing when you just have to let go. So that is what I have done…let go. Now that I have let go I am seeing a steady string of ex’s and people I dated trying to ….shall we say “Get back on my good side”.
Let me set the record straight though. If I gave you a chance to prove yourself time and time again and your ass still hasn’t learned, why should I stay with you? I live by this rule. If you hurt me and I forgive you once, and it happens again…you’re no longer hurting me. I am hurting myself, because I knew what you were capable of and allowed you back into my life. Therefore I am the one to blame. Once I do get you out my system, there is no way in hell you will ever get back in. People never understood that about me, but I can’t help how I am. Once I am turned off, I can’t be turned back on. You can dance nekkid, balancing a nickel on your dick and I will look at you like you just shit yourself.
For some reason, men realize you’re the best shit to ever come into their life; when you realized their the worst shit to come into yours. I have no issues being friends, but if you had my tender heart and you broke it, I am done. Show is over, nothing to see here. So I say poof. pow. be gone. I am soooooooooo over it, and plus when you’re no longer in love the dick doesn’t seem to hit the spot like it use to.
